I set you free

After some years we met again in a street by chance. I had spent nights of dreaming about our meeting by chosing the words I was going to say to him. But when we met, everything was not important any more.I was changed, he too. I thought when after some years I would meet him, I could read from his eyes what had happened, but there was no traces from the feelings of past, from the pain I had. We talked as good friends as if nothing had happened between us. Simply I did not understand him. The only thing I had understood I had a secret from him, which I had saved during these years. Had he already shared the secret with someone else, I did not know. It was intersting to know, but I did not care any more.

But I did something after our meeting. I went to home, opened my memory box and found a letter, the only letter I had kept after so many years. That letter was never sent.

Dear Friend
I miss you...
Missing someone is a feeling that can break everyone. I am not broken, but I am only tired, because of it I set you free.
I set you free as I believe in you and your choice. I believe that some day I will be sorry and you too, but at the same time I believe that we both will find the way to happiness.
It,s going to be a letter of saying goodbye. Thousands thoughts flow out from my mind, but they all seem too poor to be said in such an important moment. In such moments people remember only small things that have made them smile. People can still love small things,sometimes I do too, But I am so sorry, i can not love only a part of you. Because of it I set you free, I know when you go out from my Life, my soul, my heart and my thoughts, I,ll find the peace I am looking for,I feel already a little of the light that will come to me after you leave, but there are still words that must be said to ensure that we do exist.
After knowing you so many years, I do not know you. A day came and brought with it limitless emptiness, a strong feeling of missing someone close. Why you seemed so close, I did not know. If I could believe in reincarnation of souls, probably I could say we had met in past lives. I did not know why suddenly you became such an important person in my life, probably because I let you, you entered my soul with your childish and sweat smile and took me far from myself. I started to cry at nights as you entered my life to give promises you were never going to keep.
I miss you. Have you ever thought what feel a butterfly that can not fly? Surely pain that probably a humen being can not bear. I need my wings back, as I do not want to make again and again mistakes.
I miss you and I set you free not to miss you any more