So strange to be here..
We haven,t met for a long time. Now you are here too. Many things have changed and we both too.
You know some times ago i loved you, I would give my life for you. The borders of my world were lined by you.I was just a slave. my willng has disapeared somewhere, but the worse was that I had no time to look for it. I had lost and couldn,t control myself,I forgot my dreams, my future.You could change my plans in a minute without knowing that it took mouths to make them.You had the power to make me do things i don,t want, you could make me think in a way, i dont want, you could hurt me by being sure i would forgive you, and you were right, you could ask everything and I would give without any doubt. I needed nothing to love you. I could live whole my life just dreaming and being near you. You couldn,t understand what i Felt, as you had never felt in love.
I worshiped you. I spend my nights thinking of you. You were everything for me, you were the world where i could live and breath, where i could dream..when i walked in the streets, i noticed nobody as i was too busy with thinking of you.People blamed me for ignoring them, they couldn,t understand that there was nobody else but you for me. Friends asked me to forget you. They really don,t understood, I was addicted to you, If I gave up, I would die. In any case I thought so at that time..
I missed you even when I was near you, I could stare at you for hours and never got tired. I could write poems for you, and every time they were original. You were inspiration for me.
And its you made me fell desire to live beautifully,to appreciate my life, every moment i live. And its you made me dream of you, and its you made me love you. I even didn,t know for what you did. I even didn,t know for what i loved you, I even couldn,t guess...but I was sure in one thing you were my sense of life...
Now we both are her. We have met again. So much time has passed. I am looking at your eyes and feel nothing. And its so quiet.

A letter to P.C,

You say that the world has its language, and if we really want to find out why we are here, we shoud study it...I try, i do my best to understand the language which i have never heard, I cant find it in the books, I ask people, but they have heard nothing. What a strange language is it.Nobody can speak on it, nobody know its letter, nobody have ever heard.
You say that whole our life depends on discovering the miracle of a day. I just discovered that the day is a challenge of wasting our time. I look, but I cant see. I have lost something,and I don,t know what it is, I even don,t rember, but I am looking for it with whole my faith that someday I,ll find it,
You have said that Life is something worth to be lived beautifuly, i just found beautiful faces and masks, and when i from time to time get tired of pretending too, people start hate me, but sometimes i start hate myself for being so naive.
From time to time someone come to remind me that I am too stupid as I still believe in words and people.both are the most beautiful lies of the world..
You say the winner always stays alone,
I would perefer to be the winner and stay alone, that to be nobody and be alone.............

FaiTh Is GreaT PoWeR

faith is great power., You want to organize revolutions, want to win in wars, you need to lead people, make them trust you and come with you wherever you go, make them be slaves???????? then give them just faith, make them believe in whatever they do, and they will steal stars for you, they will make mountaines bow. You know why it is so???Just faith make people,s life easy..
Sometimes People ask me what i need to be happy, I usually dont answer, but I know i am going on living just because i believe that one day all my dreams will come true. I acknowledge that reality may not be like dreams and even I.ll live the whole life by just dreaming, and maybe the life will pass and i.ll will be too busy with dreaming that i,ll miss the bus of happiness, but as long as i believe in it, I can let me go on living.
So, if you believe in whatever you do, then it means you do right things??? If you can give your life to prove that you have made the right decision, is it important to find out if your decision is right or not??? I believe that its not important,as believe has the power to give us an opportunity to make mistakes...

Dear friend,
I really dont know why I am writting all of these right now.. I just know i miss you..You haven, t come today, and it seems i haven,t seen you my whole life.
I want to tell you something, I know that we haven, t met by chance, As everything in this world has its sense, our meeting has its too. I dont know why it is like that, but u understand me, you believe in me, you want to help me and you take care of me...It makes me feel security as if you will protect me always and everywhere...I want to hold your hand and walk in the streets of our city to show the world that i have a good friend..friend that will never betray and whom I,ll always will be able to trust,,Thanks for just being near, for helping me, for everything you do for me..for listening and laughing to make me laugh too, for sharing your time with me..
I know, its no matter what will happen, but i am sure we will be friends forever.

10.08.2010

Dear.....,
Its the last letter I am writting to you.Cogratulations, you won, in a day you proved that friendship is just a myth,,That people use that word to decieve thereseves that people really care..Its not like that...time will pass and then pain i feel like now, will disappear, and someday, when i,ll see you in the streets i,ll feel nothing but indifference..i.ll meet new people, i,ll be able even get new friends, i will have a nice time, day by day I,ll remember you very seldom and that day will come and you will be just my past.i wanted to say you just one thing..I will never forgive you, and not for what you have done, but for the way you chose to do it....

15.08.2010

Dear Friend

Dear friend,
I haven,t written to you for a long time, as i think you will not understand me.But now it came the time to tell you something. We met by chance, somebody introduced us and i even don,t remember who she/he was.But the first time i saw you, i realized that you were important for me and it seemed i had known you the whole my life.I shared with you my dreams, my thoughts, everything good i had in my life..
I thought maybe you would like to know how i lived. everything is ok, I have fulfilled some dreams, and got some new..I have met new people, i even get new friends..i started to think in a different way, now i can take everything easy.